I enjoy reading VNs, except when it comes to having to read whole separate routes. It infuriates me how, even though I have enough time, I feel left behind with the lore. Truly, no VN will be able to express lore to full extent. The complexity is defined by imagination of the writer. Although the 'player' can understand the story from their point of view, I can't bear to not share or feel the same underlying thought as the creator.
Please come back, for I feel the pain from the expression of emotions and feelings. Even though it brings pain, there is no way to go around it without being intrigued by the process. No pain is always the same. No emotion is always the same. No feeling is always the same. Share the pain as it eases your mind with understand that you are not alone. None will ever experience the same pain. Please help yourself and others that you are not alone. You aren't alone no matter how you feel. No matter the state you are in. There will still be someone, anyone. Do you give up just because you can't accept it? Do you go in your world of pretend where everything is sugar coated? I know it's hard but should it really be easier. You may see that everyone but you is happy. But seeing others happy is what makes you sad? Then is seeing others not sad makes you feel sad? I understand it. You want to share this experience with someone else but it won't happen just like that. The growth of a being is not a physical. A kid may be in a body of an adult. An adult may be in the body of a kid. In the end, it doesn't matter because all of us are kids. All it is the morality that tempts people to act accordingly to their understanding or desire. it doesn't matter now.
What defines a being is how they see themselves and how they are seen in others' minds. The body of a person merely adds a visual interpretation of one's being. A person is part of the world of people around them. A person can be thought of with any characteristic by others and that thought would keep the person alive. Maybe the future will not be seen with them but as long as there is someone who remembers, someone who holds on to the thought dearly will keep the person alive.